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Ok OK I understand now why no one new as add my new journal to their friends its because I for got to give you the name well here it is XrockstarloveX
Peace out
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[Wednesday the 4th, 03.31PM] |
Ok Ok sorry to say but I got a new journal...... Yay Be happy for me I'm awsome well I really wont right in this one any more I'll just post like poems and quizzes so you my new journal is
Yea its pretty sweet so Peaces out
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[Saturday the 30th, 05.20PM] |
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[Saturday the 30th, 05.20PM] |
My lil Mistake: Courtney how do you make all those cool colorbars and background and those one things that state your name and all that good stuff over a picture.? Like what type of program do you need and where do you get it and I want to know how to make icons
My lil Mistake: Sorry just to ask you out of the blue
SailorSun1012: I use Adobe PhotoShop
My lil Mistake: Is that a good one
SailorSun1012: and for the icons I use Adobe ImageReady
SailorSun1012: The best one that I know of
My lil Mistake: Where do I get it
SailorSun1012: It's a program you have to buy so you can't download it online
My lil Mistake: damn it
SailorSun1012: But if you have a downloading program like Kazaa or Ares you can download it
My lil Mistake: so like if I have limewire I can get it
SailorSun1012: Yea, prolly
My lil Mistake: So I just go and there and type that in
SailorSun1012: yea
My lil Mistake: Is it hard program to use (the one you make the stuff on)
My lil Mistake: Wow your a big help
SailorSun1012: Nah
SailorSun1012: I mean, of course it's gonna be a lil hard at first cause you dun know everything. But once you start messing around with it you'll get used to all the different tools
My lil Mistake: cuz I want to make a new journal and all and I want it to be awsome
My lil Mistake: Thanx I love you your my favorite you like my favorite everything
SailorSun1012: lol, thanks
SailorSun1012: And you ever need help feel free to ask
My lil Mistake: I will I will
My lil Mistake: Yea I gots to go now but thanx for the help home ie peace out
SailorSun1012: No prob, see ya
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[Saturday the 30th, 02.52PM] |
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Ewwww He got head in the bath room nasty oh that my cousin that did
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[Wednesday the 27th, 07.15PM] |
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Your Seduction Style: The Natural |
You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast. |
Oh and this
1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Favorite Color:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band:
7. Most Embarassing Moment:
8. Are you a virgin?:
1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush/attracted to me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. With tongue?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
12. Do you/have you talk(ed) shit about me?
13. Do you think I'm a good person?
14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?
15. Do you think I'm Hot?
16. Would you call me just because?
17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they dont involve you?
18. If you could change anything about me, would you?
19. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
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[Wednesday the 27th, 06.33PM] |
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Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow
You wrote me a letter
so I don't have to drink yesterday, today or tomorrow.
Because now I'm fixed.
I don't have to drown any sorrow.
Maybe now I don't have to lose you.
I'll figure out a way to finish what we started.
You live so far away,
but our heart's paths are uncharted,
so we can make our own maps
that are based not on distance or topography,
but on want and need.
We'll call it "Love Geography"
and we will write books
that millions will want to know and understand.
We will be like Lewis and Clark
traveling together over this new land.
We won't need anyone else
to give us any misguided directions,
because all we need is our compass
created by our magnetic attraction.
I'll meet you halfway,
and it'll be a lonely trip until I catch you.
We can forget our pasts,
and together start anew.
Throw away old photographs
because nothing existed before your eyes knew mine.
My journals have been burned
because words about anyone but you are asinine.
The only thing I retain
from a past that has been trite and meaningless,
will be the dreams
where you are the animus.
Because you are the male me.
You represent all I can't be but want from another.
Jung understood why
humans have to create a masculine other.
But now those dreams will end
because you are a tangible being spawned from my mind,
and I am truly complete.
Your virility is as much mine.
So keep the letters coming
until this fabulous future becomes yesterday, today and tomorrow.
When my life can finally begin
because I've forgotten the meaning of sorrow.
Yea I thought maybe I should up date that would be best huh? Well lets see what has happen in the past couple of weeks that is worth talking about ummm......
OK the thing about Dorian and Sam ok Sam is this one girl that goes to my school and well she give this one kid name josh head in the boys bathroom during 6th hour so Dorian andf her friend Jessica told everyone and Sam got pissed but didnt do anything abouit it. The we come back in to the locker room and Laura a girl that doesnt evern know Dorian Sai shut up you sult to Dorian. So they start to fight but know fist fight and then nothing happens. A lot of rumors were started and the Dorian told Laura off. and that was that they just dont talk now.
OK now let me tell you about my weekend. Ok I went to the firehouse because I was going to spend the night at Heathers. So I get there and I say hi to everyone. Then me and heather hung out with Amber. Then we went around and ask people do they love heathers diddles most people did this one little boy said I have a girlfriend leave me alone. So we left him alone then we as this one hott mexican and he said no we said your gay and left bothered Anthonmy for sometime. David showed up me and Heather keep saying hott he was. Oh my he is so hott. The we asked him if he loved Heathers diddles he ask when did you get boobs then he ask anthony and anthony was all like I dont know so we left and bothered randall he keep saying he was stuck in between a rock and a hard place cuz he want this one girl. Didnt really care. Left hung out with Josh Jeremy Lex Kat Amber another Josh and Heather. Oh and Adam. Found out what I will do for a dollar and then I found out what I will do to give away a dollar. Then we left after seeing randall make out with this one girl. Then we left. When back to Heathers house. Me and Heather wanted McDoanlds so when there they were open so we waited in the drive throw they didnt serve us we were mad. So we got so chips. Then walked back home sat out side and talk some time when in side Heather spilt milk in her eye then me Heather Randall Alex and Anthony all hung out in heathers room till like 4 in the moring. Then woke up when to lUkes birthday party he was mad most of the time then me and heather just hang out Kyle totally wanted Heather. Then we swam alot. THen Roxy came I seen her diddles did nothing. When back to heathers. Seen a movie it was dumb . Then went home hung out with david and Randall
Seen them fight in the rain it was sexy. Then we did nothing. Went to bed then we wake up the next moring to find out that Randall and Axel and Anthony got picked up by the cops. IT was funny. Then we went to the beach again. Then we went back to heathers house randall pinched my diddle it hurt really bad then we went to the park hung out with David and Randall and HEather Randall and David both pinched my diddle at the same time and the hurt then I went home. Oh and I got to see their snake eat a Rat it was cool.
But I must go now peace out bye.
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People really want me to update but I dont have the time but as so as I do I so will I just want to say I went to heathers this weekend and had so much fun and i got a new crush he is so hot and muslely so sexy. but peace out loves bye
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Today at school was so awsome there was a verbal fight between Dorain and this girl name Sam and the this other Girl Scream at dorian and told her to shut up you slut it was so funny I'm on Dorian side because Sam is sult
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[Saturday the 2nd, 08.15PM] |
Hey love I'm in london its really fun to tell you the truth Even though their are some bad times. Lets just say people like to leave me out sometimes its ok but As so as I get back to the states I'll show you pictures. I bought alot of cool thing. Oh and the Pope is dead and I am some what starting to hate one of my friends on this trip but I wont later. Ben is the one that is really paying for me to use this.
Oh and Steven I think we should talk about that one thing cuz I think I know who told her all this stuff because I talk to her the friday before I left.
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Well I dont really have anything to say but I did do some awsome quizzes so follow the cut and you can get to know me Peace out
( Well guess again my friend.... )
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[Tuesday the 15th, 08.17PM] |
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Take the quiz at dicepool.com
No use trying to fight it, you're an eight-sided die, a d8. A fine example of simple elegance, the d8 is one of the least appreciated types of dice, and is often neglected. You are known to be quiet and shy, outward traits that conceal viscous sarcasm and mean wit. You are very smart, yet wise enough to hide your intelligence the quicker they found out how smart you are, the sooner they'll put you to work, which is something you can do without. People call you dark and pessimistic, or moody and cynical. You find little point in arguing.
Wow that is true sad but true. Oh yea remind me to burn the disturbed cd for jakie before 2morrow. Well peace out
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This is like one of the weirdest ones I ever got Because One Jayme is the Virgin.... Wrong... Steven's Jesus...... Thats funny...... Courtney is Satan.... That made me pee my pants thats how funny that one was.... Also I'm an Angel... That kills me well it is true Its just funny to me
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| Its like I've lost Its like I'm giving up slowly |
[Sunday the 6th, 12.04PM] |
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| Revenge |
Blazing from a bottomless lake of fire
it will invade the bounds of your comfort zone
supported by power of sure intention
to grant suffering to your flesh and bone.
Concerned about your safety it is not
as it yearns to accomplish nothing more
than the destruction of your sickening pride
that nourishes your ego to the core.
At my command its presence shall depart
and begin its delegated journey
to encroach upon your clueless being
and deliver a curse of your deserving.
Though I have desire with all my heart
for peace in abundance of radiant light
you exist no longer in my eyes
and all thoughts of you are cast into night.
No earthly prayer shall heed your pleading
as you hide behind the gilded altar,
for patience has come to a definite end
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Tell you the truth this weekend was pretty damn good.... MAybe I should take it day by day to explain it to you.
Well Friday I didnt go to school. Which was great but I miss this test in PE so I have to make it up damn I got to study. Then My mom yelled at me alot so that wasnt so great. But the day gets better. I then went to angela and he fucked around and waited to go to the fair.
Ok like we had to pick up angela's sister's Friends and had to take them home to get ready so that they could go to the fair with us and they took like for ever. But then we went to the fair and we had to wait in like line for like 5 mins to get our wrist band think it was awsome. Then we get in and Angela knowing Angela had to piss. So I had to wait for her to finsh peeing and I shall this guy fall of this toilet racing thing it was funny. So we wait in line for this one line and we thought it was like some roller coaster thing and we didnt think it was going to be lame or anything but there was many clues stating that it was lame like it was shaped like a dargon and only little kids were getting on it. Doesnt that just have like a big sigh with flashing lights thats saying lame lame. It was then we were walking and I seen Heather and I gave her a hug and had a chat with her. Anthnoy and Randall were standing by here man they looked like shit. Anthony (mind you my ex they I would of still dated if he didnt look so bad now.) had still had his spikey hair that I always loved about him but he had shaved the sides off So it looked like shit. Then Randall just didnt look the same he looked like shit. So then me and Angela went on all these other rides and when we went on the rock and roller ride we seen her sister all by her self so we told her sister to wait for us to get off. Then her sister told use this stroy of how her friends ditched her. It was sad. So then she rode some rides with us. Then she started to talk these one boys that at first I didnt know but come to find out that it was this kid name Alan that got cought with weed in the 5th grade. Man I dont like that kid then he kept like touching me and I was like dont touch me. The we went on the roller coster and ditched them. Then I seen Ashlee and Anthony and Randall again and I like gave ashlee this big wave. I miss that girl shes awsome. Then I was walking cuz Angela and Amanda was on a ride. ANd I shall them again on the bumper cars. They always loved those rides. They went on the ride like 3 times in a row. Then me and Angela got an Elephant ear. THen we left adn went home and sleep.
Then we woke up around 12 and we watch you got sevred (I cried. Thats sad but it was a sad movie.) And we watched SAw. I loved that movie. It was great. I love movies like that. THen I came home and went to walmart like twice and Angela gave me alot of free samples because she's a free sample giver outer.
Then today I did nothing nothing at all. But I did talk to luke he's going surfing I want to learn how to surf. He's awosme. But I'm gonna go know bye bye babes Love ya
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[Tuesday the 1st, 04.58PM] |
| Losing My Mind |
I’ve become weak
Lost and alone.
With tears of sulphur
And a heart of stone.
I’ve become nothing
A speckle in this time
Thoughts became illegal,
Feelings became a crime.
I’ve become a follower
My hands are tied by love.
I’ll sit and watch the crowded graves
And the killing of the dove.
I just fail to feel alive.
We fight and we brawl
And then, as we die
We stare at the whitewash wall
And cry.
Sitting in the corner,
Watching you point and stare
“See that poor girl
She’s dying over there”
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Well I'm starting to miss someone so much. And I dont knwo what to do or say. I dont know how to change the way I feel about him or how I feel about anything. It just bothers me that I cant change anything about anything. And I just feel like shit and I have no reason to be so piss off and sad. I really want to talk to Luke. I miss him. I really miss him so much. I really just feel like shit not talking to him for so long I just want him to be like he was.
Talking to angela Were talking about who she likes. Werid. I need a man.
I get to choice what I want to do for next school year. I really dont know what I want to really do with the school.
I have a plan I great plan lol. Hey I like this song I'm going to give you the lyrics
Well I'm going to go now bye Story Of A Lonely Guy | by Blink 182 |
Push it out
fake a smile
avert disaster
just in time.
I need a drink
cause in a while
worthless answers
from friends of mine.
It's dumb to ask
cool to ignore
girls possess me
but they're never mine
I made my entrance
avoided hazards
checked my engine
I fell behind
da da da da da da da da da
I fell behind
da da da da da da da da da
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
and when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm a fuckin' boy.
Remember when
I was in
the grocery store
now's my time
lost the words
lost the nerve
lost the girl
left the line
I would wish
upon a star
but that star
it doesn't shine
so read my book
with a boring ending
a short story
of a lonely guy.
da da da da da da da da da
I fell behind
da da da da da da da da da
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
and when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
i'm alway's nervous on days like this, like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin boy.
She makes me feel like it's raining outside
and when the storm's gone I'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on days like this, like the prom.
I get too scared to move, cause I'm still just
A stupid worthless boy
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[Tuesday the 22nd, 07.55PM] |
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When I look,
I look into your soul.
I can see your searching
eyes ... looking into me,
into the very
depths that I
hide.
I let you seepast them, mostly.
Because I love you, I let you look.
So far, yet our
hearts and souls are
bound together.
Distance is merely a
physical separation ...
It neither helps nor hinders
our love for one another.
The way I feel
when I talk to you.
There are no words
that allow me
to tell you
Besides "I love you."
So old-fashioned,
uncreative,
I love you.
From my very being,
I love you.
Forever and more,
I can't say it enough.
I'll say it until I die,
pass from this
world,
Will you believe it?
Will you, please?
I love you.
My heart runs
in circles.
My mind's spinning.
Breathless
Dizzy
Spinning
Twirling
Excited
Jumpy ...
In love ...
It's the greatest feeling.
Tell you the truth I am happy today not like happy happy just happy. I have no real need to be happy just that I got some make up work sitting on my bed that I dont want to do. I also gots to study for a bio test that is tomorrow Damn dont I have a life thats just filled with school work.
I convese my mom to let me download napster. Awsome. I really like that I'm gonna download Marilyn MAnson > Personal Jesus its like the first on my list I love that guy. I'm also going to download Mudvayne> Happy?. For some odd reason I want to listen to very hard core stuff latly. Like disturbed and shit. Who know I'm a weirddo.
I'm on the phone with Donna. Donna is awsome chick. Luke keeps telling Donna he's single you know thats not gonna last that long. Dont think I'm going hook up with him I dont want that from him. Love that guy to death but I dont want him in that way. Well I'm not gonna lie. I want him any way I can get him.
At times I cant hear donna at times because she's on a cell phone. Weird. We're talking about her man Phillip. I spit in thats kids face. LOL.
Well Peace out Honey Child
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| With some Pain and Some Spit and Some SPUNK!!!! |
[Friday the 18th, 10.03PM] |
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Hey I haven't talked to most of you in some time..... maybe it because I have no life and I been working on my school work. Wait that sounds totally not like something I would do but its true wow that's sad. Most of the smart kids last year were like fuck it this year and I'm really trying I just think its weird. I don't know why though. Maybe its just that no one around me is really trying. Well at least I have Chaka still. She's still trying to keep her grades up. I really like talking to Chaka now a days she's really nice. She a lot sweeter then last year. I kinda like LPA now. I made a lot of new friends but I miss a lot of my old ones to. I going to London soon and next Christmas I'm going to Japan. (Courtney's jealous of that one. LOL) That's really good cuz by the time I'm 17 I've been to two different countries. That's weird. I want to change the way I dress and look. Like cut and maybe dye my hair. And like change my dressing to fit my life style better. Nicole Richie is my style icon from now on. I really cant change much about my style this year but next year its all gonna change. Nicole Richie is so pretty. I love her. I want to lose some weight. PE really isnt help with that. I hate PE. Its ok I just dont like to Run in a time limit cuz I know I cant make it so it upsets me. Damn it. I'm some what upset at the moment. DOnt know why. Today has had its ups and downs like an up was I got an 88 on my bio test. Yes. Then I wanted to go to the firehouse but my mom said no. That sucks I wanted to see some of my friends. I'm talking to Steven right now. About this long story about the Necklace heather gave him. I miss that girl. Talk to her the other night. She is awsome. Why do I write so much no one gonna read it other then maybe steven. HI who ever you are. Well I'm gonna go but heres some things I did. Peace out love.
( Honey Child Dont you ever talk to me like that again or I'll cut you son... )
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I know I been dead for a while I hope u forgive me..... I have a feeling no one reads my journal any more but those who do I'm sorry for being gone for so long...... JUst school takes alot from me now. Its the IB program you know..... Lets see Ummm As for my love life I still like Luke and nothing has happen with that I'm just gonna wait good things comes to those who wait.... Lets hope its true. Ummmm my history day project was grea. I have about 53 more days till I got to london and about 5 or less months till my birthday. I think I got a 63 on my American Gov test damn it I'm trying really hard to get mostly A's so I can get a tattoo this summer. I been looking for colleges that are great for people who want to major in dramatic arts/theater I really like drama I would like to do that for a living. I may have to take some classes after school and stuff or during summer. I dont care. I really got to get better grade I'm working hard. Lets hope it works. I printed out a job applaction for hot topic so I can get a job there when I trun 16 but other then that I am good nothing is going on. Oh today is my Ex-Boyfriend's Birthday. Yay. His name is Anthony. I wish we were still friends cuz I would have called him today and said Happy Birthday. Well I got to go. Oh and I got this for you...........
[01] Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
[02] I will then tell what song[s] remind me of you.
[03] Next, I will tell you who you remind me of, celebrity/animated or otherwise.
[04] Last, i will try to name a single word that best describes you.
[05] Put this in your journal
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[Wednesday the 19th, 03.28PM] |
1. Tell me something obvious about you.
2. Tell me something about you that many don't know.
3. What is your biggest fear?
4. Do you normally go the safe route or take the short cut?
5. Name one thing you want that you can't buy with money.
6. What is your most treasured possession?
7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do often?
8. Tell me something sexually about you that I don't know.
9. Tell me something sexually about you that everyone knows.
10. What is your favorite lie to tell?
11. Name something you've done once that you can't wait to do again.
12. Are you the jealous type?
13. What is the one person, place or thing you can't say no to?
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?
16. When was the last time you cried?
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?
19. Name something embarrassing you did while being drunk.
20. If you post this in your journal would you like me to answer it?
would you..
Give me your number?
Watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
Let me take you out to dinner?
Drive me somewhere/anywhere?
Listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
Buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
Sing car karaoke with me?
Sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
Let me give you a piggyback ride?
Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
Re-post this for me to answer your questions?
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